it was that word that did it. METASTATIC. well what do you say? i held my breath, tried hard to ignore the sick, sinking feeling deep in my belly. she was asking what it meant and i couldn’t tell her. not that i don’t know what it means, more that i was too scared to tell her. and she was asking because she knew i’d know. she knows i’m a nurse. she knows i’ve been there before with mum. she knows i must know. and i just panicked. i filled in empty space with meaningless talk. i walked to my bookshelf, found my medical dictionary in the hope that someone had placed a new definition over the top of the old one. i read it, put it back on the shelf and the best i could do was suggest she ask the doctors. or ring the helpline number that i gave her. what sort of friend does that??? i’m such a chicken. and now i feel like i should ring and tell her that i panicked. i tried to buy myself some time, i hoped that perhaps i had heard her incorrectly, i’m a chicken.
def:- metastastis – 1. the transfer of disease from one organ or part to another not directly connected with it. It may be due to the transfer of pathogenic microorganisms or to the transfer of cells, as in malignant tumors. 2. a growth of pathogenic microorganisms or of abnormal cells distant from the site primarily involved by the morbid process.
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